Day One

Ok so first off it isn't strictly day one as that would've probably been Friday but I haven't been up to bloogging. That of course will change as I've decided that I need to start blogging on a daily basis. I did like the sound of day one as it's a definite start, a beginning.

Firstly after a trip to the Doctors on Friday I was diagnosed with depression (rated just above moderate severe on the scale). Doctor was pretty good and instead of just sticking me on anti-depressants he went through the options and as I wasn't over keen on taking pills to sort it he's given me information on the drug he'd prescribe and given me time to think it over. He also pointed me in the direction of a website that deals with depression in the local area and suggested counselling as an option. Put my name down for counselling but haven't heard anything about that yet.

After looking at the website I found that something called 'thinking errors' began to ring true with me. Seems the way I think isn't always right! Have to admit that I do jump to conclusions and since I read the info on the site I've probably experienced two or three examples of this in action. The good thing is I now seem to be dealing with these situations much better, I'm still thinking wrong but I've not took it out on others (instead I'm just torturing myself!).

I guess it's something I'll have to learn to control. In the meantime I have to decide whether or not to start taking anti-depressants. I don't like the idea of being able to change my mood with a pill (not to mention the side effects) but it might have to be something I have to do to improve my interactions with others. I'm also worried it could change my personality. I think at this point I am very much undecided but swaying to not taking them at the mo. I need to consult my Doctor, I need to ask him if it would/could change my personality and will it stop or suppress 'thinking errors' occuring.