My brother and his family will be here very very shortly, last week I inadvertedly let slip what he had bought his fiance for Christmas. I had no idea it was a Christmas present and that it was a secret as he had cocked up on the gig date (it was for 2010 not 2009). After they'd left I got an ear-full from my Mum, I exploded due to a few thinking errors eg not trusted, reject kid/outsider due to being the product of a failed marriage etc etc and went off upstairs to sulk. It was then that I started posting silly messages on Facebook (something else that got me into trouble!) which lead to the realisation that I need to see a Doctor and find out if I am actually suffering from depression or not.
So as you can guess I'm not looking forward to tonight. I'm already thinking that he hates me after last week's outburst.
Be definitely a test of strength/character to get through tonight without thinking or saying things that have no basis in reality and are just wrong conclusions on my part based on thinking errors yet again.
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